Both.  I’m very blessed that I’ve been given the gift to write books that keep people entertained.  It’s not an easy task to sit down and put together a storyline and then write the novel.  It’s truly an art, and as with any artist, you have to be gifted.  At the same time, it can be a curse.  I’ve spent many a sleepless night trying to work through problems I’ve created for myself in a manuscript and countless hours fretting over getting the manuscript completed.  And I’ve frustrated myself to no end when I’ve sat down and tried to write but it just wasn’t working for me.  I’ve said before that you have to be in the right frame of mind to write your best; you can’t force it.  You just have to let it happen, yet I’ve sad looking at the blank computer screen and tried to force it because I wanted so much to keep moving the project along.  You’re cursed in that you have high expectations for yourself, and if the book doesn’t turn out the way you want or doesn’t live up to your expectations or those of your readers, you’re very hurt and frustrated.  You’re cursed in that you never feel the book is good enough, and you strive to make the next book better.  So, I think it’s both a gift and a curse.  Is this why so many artists and writers kill themselves?